So these were taken in my grandmas basement.  i finally figured out how to do it! 
i'm thinking of using either the color or black and white one as a senior portrait, what do you think?

*sigh*  i've been slacking




smear my heart
i should have smeared the heart more..... oh well.  

i'm just in a not so good mood.  boys are stupid.  i fell for it again, i didn't think i was that stupid, but apparently i am.  

don't know whats going on, its like these stupid fake butterflies are the only inspiration i'm having....
stupid creative block, how do you get out of it?

was totally amazing!  
I play silky M. Adam (say it) i played the whore.  there were 8 of us, Molly, a flapper who had an underground alchohol smuggeling buisness, Harrow, the dirty district atturney, Socks, a mobster known to carry a gun in his golf bag, Torchy, a jazz singer, Scoop, a reporter, Ernie G. Ambler (say it), and Billy the thrower, a baseball player.  all of us had a reason to kill hal coppone
basicly, one of us killed hal coppone, and we had to figure out who did it.  i was suspiciouse that i did it, but i wasn't sure (its kinda like clue, you don't find out you did it till the end)  on the second to last page in big bold caps letter it said 'YOU ARE THE MURDERER AND THE THEIF' and all i could think was 'aaahhh.... crap' .  the best part was no one guessed i killed hal coppone though! 
they said that they should have known i did it since he died of syphilis in real life.  


heres my portrait

from the party:

again, inspired by stupid boy
of how even though hes not interested, isn't even being a decent human being, i still like him.  

*fixed*

b&w or yellow?





inspired by this boy who i like who gives me butterflies.  i hate the feeling, especially since i doubt he likes me in return.  
first photo in a long time that actually has meaning behind it. 

while at my grandparents house, do you think the sepia tone is to much in the first one?



 

long exposer, between 5-15 seconds

 






roman candles





my fav. (from flickr)

i must say i enjoy band camp much better, and its a lot less dangerouse aswell.  i mean i suppose you could swollow a mouth piece or get smacked with a tuba but REALLY its much safer than photocamp.  i got chemicals (fix) in my eyes and had to go to the hospital on day two.  
THAAATTT was fun.

heres my favorite photo


thats my friend tara

today i took these:







i got hungry?

 a photography adventure while at the park today with the kid i'm babysitting; don't be fooled by his looks! he's kind of a brat. 
i'm starting my portfolio soon, do you think these are good enough to be added?
advice, favorite, critique?


1.
(the kid)

2.
this simon, a kid that was at the playground, his mom tried to help me but he would not hold still!
(those really are his eyes)


3.
simons little brother, didn't catch his name, he had beautiful eyes too

4.
(not for my portfolio, just cool)

Matt took these

5.
I asked him why he wanted to take pictures of me, and he told me because i was 'the most beautiful babysitter hes ever had' 
whoooo!!

6.


I very much dislike this job, i just keep telling myself i can buy 5 forever 21 dresses with how much i make in a week.  
hopfully i will show you my portfolio soon

I know that i'm not fat, but here in these photos, just for a split second, don't you go:'ew'?  I do. 








 I have muscular legs, and i'm okay with that, i know i sure as hell can out run those stickley girls, but i still can't help myself from thinking 'ew', and thinking that the photos would have been better if i was skinnier or if i had a skinny model.   it was the first thing i saw when i uploaded theses photos and its not a good thing.  i'm not surewhat to think, i can see why models are skinny, but that shouldn't be why, we shouldn't have skinny models because the small voice in our head says 'ew' , but it does, and thats whats wrong.  somehow that small voice grew inside us, and somehow we need to get it out.  i guess i havn't figured that out yet.  but i'm proud of my thick legs, these legs got me to sectionals for the 100 hurdels, but it does make me not want to take pictures of myself in short dresses, maybe not wear dresses and skirts at all?

I do believe i like this attempt, probably my favorite so far.  
 

i'm wearing my favorite antique locket, its dated to about 1890, and it has a picture of 2 sisters each wearing a locket, it also has the initials GCT on the back.  i think it would be amazing to find the other locket, but i'm fairly sure thats immposible.  

i'm also drawing a scarbachio on some white tennise shoes.  its okay if you don't know what it is, its a **********(insert states name here) thing.  its mad cool though, and i've gone through 2 sharpies.  perhaps when i'm done i will upload it here, simply because i like this site, and i like my shoes. 

& i'm allready bored.  
no particular adventure today, today is rather bland.  
critique?


yay for random fashion/self poraits!
&for the record, i'm an only child, so i would LOVE to actually use models, but i'm not alloud to have friends over.  but i am planning some shoots this summer, just not yet. 

*New Layout* 

imagine: its 9:30 in the morning, and theres is a young girl with half curled(i got bored and didn't curl the back) wind blown hair, wearing a prom dress and running shoes (for a quick escape), modeling on the side of the road, in knee high itchy grass, waving at cars as they pause, carrying an oblong case on her back (tripod) and a camera around her neck, wandering into peoples backyards, modeling in their gardens, and disappearing into the woods only to reappear and then to wander again into a corn field, and not come back out for a good half hour.


my legs are very beat up from my adventure.







{flickr: http://flickr.com/photos/22135318@N05/ }

I was trying to take a senior portrait, but I don't believe i'll use any of these, maybe the top one....

 

I took all these photos
critique?
   
     
   

lets see how this works.....

i took all these photos, and edited them too. 
critque?